From Museum Piece to Living Breath

Give me all and nothing
I plead!
Steal my all and reward nothing
I beg!
For my home, is a rich land
Laid arid by my foolish actions.
Holding me close that partake of the fruit
That I, betray who I am in a longing bid.

As I throw my identity

My tongue

My speech

That I belonging here and nowhere

Ashamed of the riches stained by my home

While trash that which is me

For a view that is empty.

Give me all and nothing
I plead!
Steal my all and reward nothing
I beg!
For I long for an identity that is me

Yet the me I find, is clouded to my purpose

Seeking to be like the rest

While pleading for mercy to heavens.

As take my heritage for dice

Rolling deep in forgetfulness

While shedding tears of be forsaken

For I threw the towel to my tongue

And embraced a ghost speech

That made me inadequate.

Robbing my step

Only to leave me crawling to my future.

        I have often wonder, "Why is it now hard to construct at in my mother tongue and who have I become?" In a bid to belong to the global village I have oftenly found myself wanting to sound like the next person and take offence ssomeone picks a bit my dialect in my voice tone. At the same time I have discovered the more I do so the more I lose who I am cause in my tongue lies my identity. Barricading my heritage, i have also discovered that I have a lost alot in the process for now will give ear to some who sound the same as the rest of us.

The Home Vein

 Buried between the heart and reality.

Dust arises to attest of life.

Bound with unspoken promises

Dubbed the home vein life.

Banned from idle walks in the shade

Into a den of rhythmic soul, I reign.

 

Though sometimes called “Njecha” (sand)

You find me sending notes of joy

Knotting reality with a purpose afar

Surrounded by dust, with an oath

Creativity oozing from every pour

Into every street corner to be a hive, I reign

 

Created to change the world

The dust arises in a dream

Ashy gates speaking volume of plastics

Scrapping the paint in scores

Where goals build goal posts of tomorrow

Exposed to the light of tomorrow.

 

              In my life, there have been moments when I got to ask myself where my home was? Africa being on the global stage I find my thoughts drifting towards. Sometimes wondering whether my goal is just a mirror of who I am without identity, as I consume what others feed without care. Which has often led me to one thought who I am? So, today I am going to try to break it down for my identity to truly shine. For my DNA is found in four in one- home, rural, school and obviously work. But the place I would be proud to show is my home. A place where dust greets you before anything else. Where life is found in the rhythm of dust morphed into pots and likes. Yet, it still stands out to be best ground to groom what is not taught in schools. Street smartness, as kids make something of themselves without a back package. Where greatness is discover

The Rope and the Red Eyes

Barely seeing afar after the mountain

I stood on arid grounds in thoughts
Held close by a belief of a helping hand
Yet in public, life tale unfold in tears

Called to just be, where questions wore thick coats

And answers escaped the mind before giving birth to solutions.

There he was,

Standing at the peak of life

A rope in hand, a voice to encourage

An eye to assist to unearth the path
While shielding bad winds

Pierced by the world's whirlwinds

For my purpose.

There he was,

To comfort a kid

Unknown to a mother's touch

Bewildered by life's platter

Shadow breaking behind curtains

Yet he tored them to assist

Sighting victory on the kid's behalf.

There he was,

Hands burnt for my sake

Feet blisted for the same

Eyes reddened for the same

Head spinning for the same

Yes tired, but still soldiering on

For the kid, the world is never enough...

    You know, it's hard to see someone's value while there are still around only to realize their worth when there are gone. This have been my case so far, missing my dad who stood by us when mum was not around anymore. To many, this might sound strange because often men are the one who leave their families after their spouse is gone. In my case it was the opposite as my father was the only one who shielded us from family politics, which so prevelant in African families. I am sure most of us can testify about this. So reflecting to that, the day my father passed the reality of family politics became our daily bread. Having to grow up in sprint to learning to navigate the whole landmine of family drama.

Ancient DNA

Upon the rolling dust, lingering in my nostrils

You found me crowned with infancy joy

Painted up to the head,

With a tale that tailored my tomorrow in bliss

Denied being a roll of chance,

That Gambled life to be what it is.

As upon the rolling dust, blistered upon my hands

You found me chiseled to be a provider

Natured by those of the old,

That upon the sweat of my head

My stomach will find a rescue

No! Not on soft hands but on happy blisters.

For upon the rolling dust, served sweetness upon my tongue

You found me scarred by a taste of royalty

Birthed from dust the gave way to the lush-ful green

Inherited from the ancient crown

Where smoke spoiled the sky

To fill a child to life.

Upon the rolling dust, embedded on the mind

You found me endorsed in royalty bliss

Where the dust upon my feet spoke loudly

Creating a rhythm unforgettable to life

As it was the rods held me from infancy

Learning to walk on kingship roles.

Whispered Prayer on Shouted Truth

Please!

Please let me resize my mind

Before you rerun your thoughts to my midnight

For you sold me before my birth

Yet you knew me not

But crowned me, a pupa.

So, please!

Let me resize my mind

Before you endorse me to be royal

For in your eyes my crown was dust

And my blood was the anthem you love to oppress

Yet from the cradle of creation, I reign

While you belittled the dust that birth all.

So, please let me resize my mind

Before you… place me to fit your size

For you call me small to everything

Choking my words

So, they are never loud enough

For me to be heard

Yet my home is the dust you despise

A third world continent is what you deemed us

But please let me resize my mind

Before you forget who started with the figures

You are boastful about

As from the same cradle of creation

They were drawn to life.

So please let me resize my mind

Before you throw me down to eat the dust

As I reign from the land of kings and queens

Full of rhythm of soul that jumps alive

Danced to by all nation

Yet looked down upon.

So please let me resize my mind

Before you crown me, a pupa!

For you took a snap of my home upside down

Tell me to embrace my smallness

Yet I was larger than the rest

While you sketched me little

To tell a narrative that belittled my home

Rolling some dice to break me away from my royalty.

Gazing Past the Eyes

Then they were two on a ride

Preaching promises of time

Yet robbing seconds in words

While dancing on hours shores

Empty of the final act.

Drawn to the skies ray of promise

They watched in silence yet acting otherwise

Drowning at the back call of dreams

Where their feet scar the ground

Yet panning for gold.

Called in circles
There they were once again

Gazing past each other's eyes

Now with a renewed call to act

Forgetting the past that once crowned their heads.

Plucking a rose for final tell

They told their tale now in action

Tilling the arid grounds to bloom

Now a refresher course of dreams

And a prospect of the future.

Elegy in Reverse

 Overwhelmed under ink

Embraced in traces of her

Drenched in an elegy

He whispered a tale

Both strange to the tongue and mind

Yet strong as a scent on an animal farm.

Tilling time to seek a smile

He took his chance

Drawing tears in darkness.

Yet when it was dawn

Another story stood true

Awash with scarred face.

Swashed with emotion

He penned her words

Yet backwards they landed on paper.