Glass To Life

 In another time...
Life was easy
As ecstasy of your presences made it be.

But finite was the heart
As it have been hurt before
Guided by the past
And the vow to survive
It wasn't to fall in the same snare.

As it was either it breaks
Or it does the breaking
While it recalls of yesteryear
Revenge on innocence as healing.

But blooded
As innocence transform to monstrosity
Un-humanly charged
For tomorrow regrets fills the glass to life.

Gassed

 If fame was a person.

why do I find

myself screaming after her?

Is it because, her

fatal attraction is the vice to lure me in?

I was happy

scribbling my thoughts

Yet! She saw

potential, she wanted to herself

so onto the world

she propped me up

only to leave me midair.

She told me to be

cool

doing what the cool

do

smoking, drinking

and partying

but she forgot to

tell

these to be a

highway to hell

now I lay imperiled

on floor of the bathroom.

while dreaming of

the stars, she made me to hold

not bothered of the

set, she threw me in

Violence, the back

door she widely opened

I was her slave

finally

widely praised, for

the glory that wasn’t mine.

She already had six

feet imprinted on me

I mean! She dug a

hollow, to swallow my being

she was my friend

so I thought

neglecting, the

lesson she had with my previous heroes

I fell for her trap.

Now a shell, of my

former self

But still she was

unrelenting

gassing on my life

with her venom

yet string me to

the crocodiles

Now I’m where she

always wanted me

regret filled.

I know one day,

they will be light

I will be surely

free once again.

Invisible

Having permuted the day

Slandered by fairytale hopes

Happy to finally be where I belong

before it all came crushing

Reassuring life to be a willow tale

As at peace with...

I had made a deal

Forgoing the past that was a thorn in my crown

Throwing into despair, the light that once shined brightly

As I picture their words scarring through my heart

Tortured by their presence

Blood filling the mouth to taste

Lost once again.

Lust as the only salvation

Raging guiding compass

Feared by the elite that once cuffed me

for their songs were of blame

words flooding the core cockpit

as the old me faded.

An orphan to the reality

alone in a universe of plenty

But unimportant to be lend just an ear

that I slayed my flesh

sliced my soul

butchered my happiness

Just to feel alive again.

Only if the world was kind

but that will remain

a screaming maybe

Never to be addressed

As watchful eyes prey for entertainment

yet my back throbs cause of their brutal lashes

Not visible to the skin

While the preying eyes awaits for their turn to do me...

And save me not!

Silent Thoughts

 Is it possible?

To wake up smiling

while internally

bleeding.

As shaved off was

my innocence

before I was allowed to

live.

It was in my

infancy, where they choked life

for me not to

breathe.

Bringing afore hell,

down in the

playground.

But dared not to

speak.

For hate a

transitive of love,

wounded my being

that I see myself

no more.

Wondering!

Was it the life

they promised?

So I fought myself

with Spears.

Neglected trust for

rage.

As silent thoughts,

dearly loved

friends.

Grind the bones

crosses brought

forth.

But none

was there to land a

hand.

So reversed became

me.

Scared to show my

heart.

As love was hate,

remember they

taught me so.

Now they yell at my

age

Curse my guts.

As bewildered

thoughts,

brews cocktails of

revenge.

Splashing my flesh

to feel alive.

Hotels remembering

my dash--

For every night is

a different stick at play.

Calling me names!

Yet forgetting it

was them

it was them who

neglected me first

it was them who

forgot me first

it was them who

landed their hands to curse me.

Now I borrow their possession

for short

temper flashing for

not

Enraged by the

world.

New Dimension

When all things met!
Dreams, reality and nightmares,
Hope seems to dwindle.
Strangled to triangulation of the future.

Though hope!
A perfect paste of the three,
Never seize to having come backs
Grinding bones until perfectly aligned.

Setting a new dimension.
As it is said,
"A triangle to represent perfection
Before the coziness of life settles."

Tilling reality to purpose!
Breaking barriers to ignite change
As life charters a new flight,
Tomorrow mining the moon.

Zero's Zoo

Get it to zero

Where life intersect happiness

Solitude becomes peace

Fleeting wars of one being.

Get it to zero

Where the future is a mirage

Today is a blessing of a dream

Fleeting the nightmare of the night.

Get it to zero

Where the mind fools the flesh

As it paints a void

Called to be in the head.

Get it to zero

Where roses seize to bloom

As bridges tell stories of lost hope

While the bulb flicks in their hands

Puffing away their dreams to heaven.

Get it to zero

Where hatred is a imagination

Envy is the Devils advocate

And dreams are a chance of unrealized hope.

Get it to zero

Where rivers stir the soul

Drunken in unbelief

Sipping to numb thoughts

As buckets rattle the heart

Grounded to despair

Fleeting fools ignorance.

WILT

 I tried
But the rose now wilts
Was it my fault
To invest all the effort to keep it blooming
Only to realize it had a season

As the soil seemed not to be ready
And water wasn't there to support my efforts.

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We only talk about the glorified side of love
Forgetting what a monster it is
Some hide away from it
Only to find themselves wearing cloth of denial
Singing "what doesn't kill you makes stronger."

Forgetting,

it's the dagger that is plunge into the heart that is dangerous
But adamantly,
Playing the ignorant card
We race our hearts to slaughter chambers
Only to emerge heartless.

So I now don't blame them those that cheat
They were once loyal
But someone broke them
They once sought that special rose to tender
But they got left in the open.

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