Invisible

Having permuted the day

Slandered by fairytale hopes

Happy to finally be where I belong

before it all came crushing

Reassuring life to be a willow tale

As at peace with...

I had made a deal

Forgoing the past that was a thorn in my crown

Throwing into despair, the light that once shined brightly

As I picture their words scarring through my heart

Tortured by their presence

Blood filling the mouth to taste

Lost once again.

Lust as the only salvation

Raging guiding compass

Feared by the elite that once cuffed me

for their songs were of blame

words flooding the core cockpit

as the old me faded.

An orphan to the reality

alone in a universe of plenty

But unimportant to be lend just an ear

that I slayed my flesh

sliced my soul

butchered my happiness

Just to feel alive again.

Only if the world was kind

but that will remain

a screaming maybe

Never to be addressed

As watchful eyes prey for entertainment

yet my back throbs cause of their brutal lashes

Not visible to the skin

While the preying eyes awaits for their turn to do me...

And save me not!

Silent Thoughts

 Is it possible?

To wake up smiling

while internally

bleeding.

As shaved off was

my innocence

before I was allowed to

live.

It was in my

infancy, where they choked life

for me not to

breathe.

Bringing afore hell,

down in the

playground.

But dared not to

speak.

For hate a

transitive of love,

wounded my being

that I see myself

no more.

Wondering!

Was it the life

they promised?

So I fought myself

with Spears.

Neglected trust for

rage.

As silent thoughts,

dearly loved

friends.

Grind the bones

crosses brought

forth.

But none

was there to land a

hand.

So reversed became

me.

Scared to show my

heart.

As love was hate,

remember they

taught me so.

Now they yell at my

age

Curse my guts.

As bewildered

thoughts,

brews cocktails of

revenge.

Splashing my flesh

to feel alive.

Hotels remembering

my dash--

For every night is

a different stick at play.

Calling me names!

Yet forgetting it

was them

it was them who

neglected me first

it was them who

forgot me first

it was them who

landed their hands to curse me.

Now I borrow their possession

for short

temper flashing for

not

Enraged by the

world.

New Dimension

When all things met!
Dreams, reality and nightmares,
Hope seems to dwindle.
Strangled to triangulation of the future.

Though hope!
A perfect paste of the three,
Never seize to having come backs
Grinding bones until perfectly aligned.

Setting a new dimension.
As it is said,
"A triangle to represent perfection
Before the coziness of life settles."

Tilling reality to purpose!
Breaking barriers to ignite change
As life charters a new flight,
Tomorrow mining the moon.

Zero's Zoo

Get it to zero

Where life intersect happiness

Solitude becomes peace

Fleeting wars of one being.

Get it to zero

Where the future is a mirage

Today is a blessing of a dream

Fleeting the nightmare of the night.

Get it to zero

Where the mind fools the flesh

As it paints a void

Called to be in the head.

Get it to zero

Where roses seize to bloom

As bridges tell stories of lost hope

While the bulb flicks in their hands

Puffing away their dreams to heaven.

Get it to zero

Where hatred is a imagination

Envy is the Devils advocate

And dreams are a chance of unrealized hope.

Get it to zero

Where rivers stir the soul

Drunken in unbelief

Sipping to numb thoughts

As buckets rattle the heart

Grounded to despair

Fleeting fools ignorance.

WILT

 I tried
But the rose now wilts
Was it my fault
To invest all the effort to keep it blooming
Only to realize it had a season

As the soil seemed not to be ready
And water wasn't there to support my efforts.

***********************************************

We only talk about the glorified side of love
Forgetting what a monster it is
Some hide away from it
Only to find themselves wearing cloth of denial
Singing "what doesn't kill you makes stronger."

Forgetting,

it's the dagger that is plunge into the heart that is dangerous
But adamantly,
Playing the ignorant card
We race our hearts to slaughter chambers
Only to emerge heartless.

So I now don't blame them those that cheat
They were once loyal
But someone broke them
They once sought that special rose to tender
But they got left in the open.

✍
tmandie@live.com

RECANTED

Would you blame me?
If I say I love you,
But I don't!
For I held a imagination of you
But you weren't here to give the love
As I pledge my heart to yours
But yours failed to reciprocate.

Would you blame me?
If I say I need you,
But not anymore!
For at the door of your heart is kept knocking for a long time
But you weren't here to open for me
Yet still I kept pursuing you in the depth of the ocean
Yet you left me drowning without  care.

So don't blame me,
As the ship sailed.
And my unrecanted negligence of the heart
Gave way
To freeing my soul from your vice.

Mr T Mandie
Twitter @hudrichent
Email tmandie@live.com

Ampaino Stings Bottled

Asked not to do this!

picking a fight with the past

ghosted out by the future.

Called a legend in their journals;

yet a drunkard

at the hand of depression bottles.

Pulled at the bottom of the bottle.

Trying "ampiano" to calm my nerves

but a Dinosaurs on the floor.

Lushed in regrets

was it the past? on a cruel one

or the present; on a case for the future?

Held on a curse of the forgetten

trumphets rolling grief on pulse

paused to believe on change

yet scarce to locate on goal.

Was it a score to life?

or VR having the last laugh on goals

played to be out; with burden over loading.

Loading to crush testimonies

as a legend is just a tale of brokenness

without life to repress.