Dragged

 Fairytales do live in the mind

"So they say!"

But mine were

demons of unceasing demands

peels

to fill the bed

inferiority egos.

Strangled by thirst

deemed forbidden

yet hooked to that

"COKE"

Called the flesh.

As I enjoyed all

its flavors

snoozing the death

alarm ringing

while my soul slips

further apart from me.

As nights covers

remains with all shades

Secretly a gentleman

Stained with

filthy-mess, that have filled my heart

Resulting in love,

ceasing to exist

Only to find its

reincarnation in Lust.

Wabbit Fairytales

As the forest mantra was chanted

The wind blew off the capes to reveal

She was home

But home

A far cry of a fairytale

Wabbit from all the tortured nights.

She yearned for normalcy

But that wasn't to happen

As at the end of it all

Stolen was her pride.

Recollected at every dusk

Seeing the monster in her garden

Living the day on the same pulse

As demons remind her of the scars

Never good enough!

As the pain she had to embrace.

Uncomfortable in crowds

Seeking to find an out

to her grieving state

She was in no man’s land

No one to listen to the plight

that hammered her heart

As the night the monster pounced

its pleasure in her blood

was looped to her brain.

Thoughts Crickets

 Here we go again!

Waking up to crickets sounding

Hoping dawn not leave at dusk

Wrestling the mirrors draining my joy

As rowdy obstreperous thoughts

Griefs my flesh to remember

To remember the day scars became permanent

Desiring to forget

But here again.

Sounding reclusive doctrine

Just to survive another day

Watching the mirror show

The me,

I no longer know

Head bent to eclipse the scenes

Rolling through it

But lacking the main actor

As thoughts race to a bed of roses

Not the red that, depict life

But black

Here again.

Here again!

Visited by the monsters

Denouncing sleep

As rage builds to cover guilty yearnings

Their heads on a rusty platter

No! Not to see blood

But to hear them scream

The way they made me be

Just for a second to rewire my brains

So I can find peace and finally live.

It's You, The Fault

 

A multifarious affair

the bed denounce the ancestors cause

Absolutely saluted by the futures vows

though you remember his hand

Many have passed through now

as they see their highway grow.

 

Under the mask is a veil of pain

Love is only said to please him

But when we were young

life was the torture he inflicted

Don't call me crazy

as I heard it’s better to keep your enemies closer.

 

But something happened

along the way he became oxygen

Revenge became the cementing bond

now I see love

Though on the wayside

weight to measure up.

 

So when you see breakdown

Remember he did it first

a ghost my past refute to let go

As it only the lingering shoots

memories closed in capsule of scars

Ready to burst out

You murdered me.

Glass To Life

 In another time...
Life was easy
As ecstasy of your presences made it be.

But finite was the heart
As it have been hurt before
Guided by the past
And the vow to survive
It wasn't to fall in the same snare.

As it was either it breaks
Or it does the breaking
While it recalls of yesteryear
Revenge on innocence as healing.

But blooded
As innocence transform to monstrosity
Un-humanly charged
For tomorrow regrets fills the glass to life.

Gassed

 If fame was a person.

why do I find

myself screaming after her?

Is it because, her

fatal attraction is the vice to lure me in?

I was happy

scribbling my thoughts

Yet! She saw

potential, she wanted to herself

so onto the world

she propped me up

only to leave me midair.

She told me to be

cool

doing what the cool

do

smoking, drinking

and partying

but she forgot to

tell

these to be a

highway to hell

now I lay imperiled

on floor of the bathroom.

while dreaming of

the stars, she made me to hold

not bothered of the

set, she threw me in

Violence, the back

door she widely opened

I was her slave

finally

widely praised, for

the glory that wasn’t mine.

She already had six

feet imprinted on me

I mean! She dug a

hollow, to swallow my being

she was my friend

so I thought

neglecting, the

lesson she had with my previous heroes

I fell for her trap.

Now a shell, of my

former self

But still she was

unrelenting

gassing on my life

with her venom

yet string me to

the crocodiles

Now I’m where she

always wanted me

regret filled.

I know one day,

they will be light

I will be surely

free once again.

Invisible

Having permuted the day

Slandered by fairytale hopes

Happy to finally be where I belong

before it all came crushing

Reassuring life to be a willow tale

As at peace with...

I had made a deal

Forgoing the past that was a thorn in my crown

Throwing into despair, the light that once shined brightly

As I picture their words scarring through my heart

Tortured by their presence

Blood filling the mouth to taste

Lost once again.

Lust as the only salvation

Raging guiding compass

Feared by the elite that once cuffed me

for their songs were of blame

words flooding the core cockpit

as the old me faded.

An orphan to the reality

alone in a universe of plenty

But unimportant to be lend just an ear

that I slayed my flesh

sliced my soul

butchered my happiness

Just to feel alive again.

Only if the world was kind

but that will remain

a screaming maybe

Never to be addressed

As watchful eyes prey for entertainment

yet my back throbs cause of their brutal lashes

Not visible to the skin

While the preying eyes awaits for their turn to do me...

And save me not!